Concerned

I have been having these heart racing, dizzy spells that are really concerning me. I keep waiting on the doctor to call to set up an appointment for testing, but waiting is driving me crazy. How long does this take? I may just have to go to the emergency room.

Alone

It's amazing how when you think you have finally found someone that you can share your life with, how alone you really are. People never understand you. I will forever be living my life alone. No one will ever understand me. I need to learn what I can share and what other just don't give a damn about. Just me!!!

My Mother's journey to heaven

My mother made her journey to heaven on October 15, 2009. She had a courageous battle with cancer. She was a very strong woman. You would never know that she was as sick as she was. Even when she wasn't feeling so well, she would tell you she was fine, just tired. She never wanted to burden anyone, but would greatly except your help. Her final days were spent with family and friends. Her time her on earth is done, but her spirit lives on. She will be greatly missed.

Some times it is difficult dealing with a person who's moods are always changing. Happy one moment, then pissed off at the world and not talking to anyone. I have learned to just let them sulk in their own misery. I can't help them and they wouldn't want me to either. Bipolar I guess. It's just a bitch some times.

When you hire a realtor to sell your house, make sure they know what they are doing. I have told our realtor a half dozen times about the errors to our listing. 4 weeks later, the changes are still not corrected. It's really frustrating.

It's hard knowing that the children you gave birth to were raised by some one other than yourself. I know life has a lot of challenges and there are compromised to be made, though it doesn't mean that you don't feel guilty for the chooses you have made.

Living life as an adopted person is some times difficult. Not that you don't have a wonderful family..cause I do...you just always wonder who you are. What is my birth family like? Who do I look like? Does my birth mother ever think about me? Does she ever wonder what I look like, how I turned out, what I like and don't like? People who are not adopted do not understand this at all. They know their family history. They know who they look like, where they get there traits from and don't feel that something is missing. That is the best way to describe the way I feel. I love my family, my parents, my siblings, my children and grandchildren...I just feel like a part of me is missing. I would love to meet my birth family. To know where I come from and who I look like. To know where I get some of my traits and quirks. Some day maybe I will met them and hopefully I will then feel complete.

Words to live by

Life is a series of events, some good, some bad. It's what makes us who we are. Learn from these events but don't dwell on the bad ones, for you can't change them. Appreciate every day, for there are no guarantees that there will be a tomorrow. Live life, love, laugh and enjoy those around you.

Constant disappointment leads to resentment. Try not to disappoint those you care for and don't make promises you can't keep.

Life is hard but it's even harder if your stupid. (John Wayne)